disappointment all around.

That statement is more than true for my life right now. It just seems as if everything that could go wrong. Has gone wrong. I don't want to go into details or anything. It's just. I keep making plans. Because I feel like I need one. I need something to look forward to. And everything just keeps falling apart. No matter how hard I try. Things just aren't working out for me. I just don't know.. 

Sorry the depressing little post. I just had to vent a little. 

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what the world needs now. is love. sweet love.

It's been raining since yesterday. I complained for awhile yesterday because I had to drive home in a near tornado. I'm at home now though. Listening to the rain fall, relaxing in the living room, and watching an old favorite movie of mine. My legs are still exhausted from my two mile run last night. I've always liked running the most when I ran in the rain.. Arielle, Mark, Mom and I were all here last night. Arielle and I ordered Chinese for dinner. My fortune fell short of my expectations. "You are the mast of every situation." How not like me is that statement? 

 It's Sunday and we're missing church again. I miss everyone there. I miss the talks. I miss the feeling I get when I'm there. I miss listening to Brother Weisler. I miss Brother Clarke and how, when he sees you, his whole face lights up. I miss the girls in Relief Society. I miss Zachary's lesson in Gospel Principles. I miss the hymns, the prayers, the spirit. Well. You get it. I miss everything about my church. 

confession of a bookaholic.

Ever since I was a little girl. I loved to read. I don't remember when I started to love books exactly. I think it started when we had our first book fair during second grade. Mom made me buy this book that I was sure I was going to hate. It's killing me that I can't remember the name. I can still see the cover of the book in my mind. Since I wanted to buy something, anything. I ended up buying the book my mom wanted me to get. I read that book way too many times. Soon after I couldn't get enough of the library. I wanted to be there every minute of every day. So. The point is. My love for reading has only intensified as the years have passed. I have spent countless hours completely engulfed in my books. I think if I could spend the rest of my days reading. I would be the happiest lady ever. Which is why I've chosen to be a literary editor. Well. I've pretty much told all of you how much of a nerd I really am. And I'm totally okay with it. :)



When I have a house of my very own. I will have a library. But for now. This is all I have.



oh sickness. you and i are not. friends.

Well. I wasn't able to work all day today. Which is very unfortunate. I would have so much rather been at work for those ten hours than laying in the bed feeling as if death was upon me. Apparently, my sister and the babies had this stomach virus when they visited yesterday. And of course everyone failed to inform me of this fact. So Jaidyn and I shared a water. And tada. I'm up this morning at five sicker than I have ever been. In. My. Life. Maybe that's a tad bit of an exaggeration. But nonetheless. I hate being sick. My immune system has been failing me lately. I think my boss may fire me if it keeps making me catch the flu, bronchitis, and whatever this is I have now.

K. So. I'll stop complaining now.. :)

Let's talk about a few good things that's going on and whatnot. I'm going to readmitted to Gordon this week. Yay for college. I've sent my applications to both BYU and BYU-I. My mommy is beautiful and loves me too much for my own good. The short ride to take my baby brother to work this morning gave us a little time to chat it up. (Even though all I wanted to do was stay in bed and cry..)

That's all for now. I hope you all have a blessed day. <3

so work it.

So. I haven't written in awhile.. Well. I wrote like a few days ago, but it feels like longer I guess. I should give you guys a little update. Arielle and I are going to the beach with a few girls from "technically" Truett's.. Girls that I don't even know. I'm excited though. I like new friends. Also. I love love love the beach. Arielle and I have started laying out. We're the palest little girls ever. But we're working on it.

Hmm.. Rainbow twizzlers are the best candy that has yet to be invented. 

Boys are confusing the heck out of me this week. 

I get to work from eleven in the morning.. until ten at night tomorrow. Yay!!!! ... I hope you guys caught the sarcasm...

Hope all of you are well. 

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let the rain

I wish I were pretty
I wish I were brave
If I owned this city
Then I'd make it behave

And if I were fearless
Then I'd speak my truth
And the world would hear this
That's what I wish I'd do, yeah

If my hands could hold them you'd see
I'd take all these secrets in me
And I'd move and mold them to be
Something I'd set free

I want to darken in the skies
Open the floodgates up
I want to change my mind
I want to be enough
I want the water in my eyes
I want to cry until the end of time

I want to let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down tonight

I hold on to worry so tight
It's safe in here right next to my heart
Who now shouts at the top of her voice
Let me go, let me out, this is not my choice

And I always felt it before
That the world was filled with much more
Than the drowning soul I've learned to be
I just need the rain to remind me

I want to darken in the skies
Open the floodgates up
I want to change my mind
I want to be enough
I want the water in my eyes
I want to cry until the end of time

I want to let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down

I want to let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down

I want to let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down
Make a brand new ground
Let the rain come down tonight

Sara Bareilles

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honestly

I don't like avocados.

I tend to cry when I see animals that have been hit and tossed to the sides of the road.

I make lists. To-do lists. Shopping lists. List of goals. I make lists of everything and for everything.

I don't have a plan.

Salads are my favorite thing to eat right now.

I can't wait to be back in school.

I speed every time I drive somewhere.

I listen to my music too loud.

I haven't washed clothes in over a week or two.

I have few friends that I can count on.

I think I'm going to be alone forever.

I miss running.

I hate running.

Keds make me happy.

My socks never match.

My favorite movies are all kiddie movies. Finding Nemo. Up. Annie. Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs.

I shouldn't have been given an atm card.

I hate saving money.

suga

Things that made me happy this week:

The purse Arielle bought for me.

Hershey's with almonds.

Working ten hours with the longest friend I've ever had.

Getting over the sickness.

Glee.

angelic

https://lds.org/general-conference/2008/10/the-ministry-of-angels?lang=eng&cid=facebook-shared

This was a link shared by someone on my facebook; someone I genuinely look up to and admire. So of course I read it and I loved it. I just thought I would share it here. <3

makin' memories.

Arielle and I had a chance to go dumspter diving last night. I can't explain why we had to go. But here are a few photos.. I never knew that doing something so gross could be so much fun.

She was brave enough to get inside the dumspter.. I, on the other hand, was better off outside. Taking the pictures.

Pretty sure. She's the only girl I know who can be inside a dumspter.. And still look gorgeous!



Before this picture was taken. Arielle and I were parked in the middle of the road ish. When we finally got the box from the dumspter we noticed an eighteen wheeler coming towards us. So I spazzed out, tossed the box to the side, and then ran to the car. I parked in a parking space so the truck wouldn't squash my car.. Only the truck had turned completely around and was no longer coming our way. I made a fool of myself. For no reason.

After creeping behind wal mart for a little while, and after finding ourselves two useful boxes, we realized how hungry we were. We bought stuff for bean dip, came home, and watched Glee episodes.

I'll miss these nights the most when I'm in Utah. Without my other half. She never fails to make my day better when I think everything is all falling apart.


p.s. my mom is an angel. today i was terribly sick. she made me soup. let me stay in the living room and sleep all day. and is now letting me watch glee. even though i'm pretty sure she might hate it. i think i love her way too much. <3