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Utah is finally getting cold like everyone said it would. I hate it just as much, if not more, than I thought I would. But the snow on the mountains is almost breathtaking. It’s probably my favorite part about being in Utah… Being surrounded by those beautiful mountains!

Now that I’ve finally managed to get myself two jobs (YES!), my next obstacle is to figure out a little time management. Sometimes I take a look back on the day or the week and I honestly have no idea what I did that was productive, besides working of course. I feel like I have so much to accomplish but I’m wasting so much of my time doing inconsequential things; like napping, or facebooking, or just sitting at the apartment with my lovely roommates. And although I love those girls, I feel like I need to be doing a little bit more with my life than just that.

You know, stuff like learning a new language, training for a marathon, going on a hike, going to visit the temple, exploring my new town, and such…

Have you ever watched the Extreme Couponing show on TLC? I mean really. These people are insane… And I’m a little jealous. I should learn to coupon. Right? I think so!

Happy Thursday! <3

things i've learned lately...

Books are like friends who share a little of themselves with you,

Change is inevitable,

Chocolate-chip cookies taste better as dough,

And you should never wait to tell someone you love them.

who cheats on ryan reynolds??

I find myself surrounded by people who have such a passion for life and what they fill their lives with. They set goals for themselves. Goals that keep them determined and focused. The more I watch them and the more I listen to them, the more I want to be like them. I want more direction in my life. It’s as if I’m not working for anything specifically at the moment. A lot of it has to do with the fact that I haven’t been in school for a little while. But even when I do start taking classes once again, I’ll still be unsure about a few things. Every day I want to study something different. And every day I talk myself out of whatever it was that I wanted to study in the first place; mostly because I don’t have faith in myself. I find that I don’t have faith in myself for a lot of the things I wish I could do. I don’t feel like I’m enough; smart enough, strong enough, spiritual enough, just enough…

And then there is this new job that I’m trying to take on. It’s a treatment center for teenage girls and although it seems like a place where I can grow and mature as a person, the idea of having to mentor these girls scares the heck out of me. Who am I to give advice and care for someone else’s child?? When I first heard about the position I thought, “Hey. I could use another job and it doesn’t sound TOO demanding…” But then I attend orientation and after listening to all that the job entails, the videos about the process of loving and caring for these young ladies, and the success stories, I’m just worried if whether or not I’m the right person for this job. I want to be. I’ll try my best to be. And that’s all I can do … Right? Yes!

Happy Friday! <3

did you think to pray today?

Sometimes I know when I’m making the right decisions with my life. Other times I think to myself, “What the frick are you even doing right now??” I’m at that point in my life right this very moment. I don’t know what to do or what to think and so I don’t always do the best thing for me. Or I don’t know what would be the best thing for me to do. I have way too many choices placed in front of me and I don’t know which one to choose, because there are so many possible outcomes that could be either good or bad. Then I get to where I overthink and overanalyze every situation. Then I get a headache. And then I decide to make a blog post about my incredible indecisiveness. Then I’m back at square one where I still don’t know what to do …

On a good note though, I got a second job. It’s called New Haven and I’m pretty nervous to start. I started at Mimi’s Café already. I look like boy in my uniform. Not that it’s a surprise really. That would happen since I had to get a guys buttoned up dress shirt. The job is pretty laid back so far. And today I was allowed to choose an appetizer of my choice for us all to eat. So of course I chose chicken quesadillas. Not only was it super delicious, it was also super free. Which I also love. Since I’m super broke. Yay.

Happy Sunday! 

i need to ...

Wash clothes.

Clean out my car.

Read a good book.

Call my Granny.

Give Arielle a hug.

See my nephews, hold them, and never let them go.

Figure out what’s going on with this new life of mine.

Learn to cook.

Go to bed earlier.

Give up Dr. Pepper. (Of course this WILL NEVER HAPPEN though.)

Buy a shirt and shoes for my new job. (YES!!!!)

Keep smiling. <3 

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1.   One thing that is completely superfluous, but that I could never give up is probably my Facebook; as lame as that sounds. I’m just a little obsessed with creepin’ on my favorites that I never see that much anymore.  

2.   Extreme Public Displays of Affection    makes me feel awkward.

3.  I can't  go one day   without,   talking to my mommy .

4.    Fruits and veggies   are my favorite snack.

5.  Lately I've been    stressing too much, laughing too much, missing too much, and sleeping too much.

6.  If at first you don't succeed   just relax, take a step back, and just remember that everything works for the better in the end.

7.  Fall is   seriously my most favorite season in the entire world.

utah... so far.

I’ve never had so much free time before in my life. My job as of now is to spend every waking minute looking for a job. Restaurants, banks, clothing stores, shoe stores, book stores. You name it. I’ve applied. And of course they all say, “give us a few weeks and we’ll get back to you.” I do, however, have a second interview at this cute little place, called Mimi’s Café, on Thursday. Wish me luck!! And if that doesn’t work out for me feel free to send me some cash… Otherwise, I may end up sleeping in my car; which no longer has a headlight. I would hit a motorcycle on my third day in Utah.

Everything else is going so well though. The roommates are so sweet and I’m so blessed to have the opportunity to get to know them. We’ve all gotten pretty close over the past few days and I love them all so much. The guys next door are seriously the best. I would have preferred an apartment that wasn’t on the third floor, but I’ll get over it. Or maybe I won’t; especially with the laundry room being so far away.

Last night my roommate, Shayla, wanted to chop all of my hair off. For some reason I’m in this whole i-want-to-change-anything-and-everything-about-my-life kind of mood. So I told her to go for it, and go for it she did. Six inches of my hair is gone and I actually love it. I can’t stop running my fingers through it or looking in the mirror. I’m not usually so self-centered, I promise. I think that’s just what a new hairstyle does to a person.

Happy Wednesday!